Feb 16 09 3:16a~
I awoke w a start 10 min ago~
My body said yes but my mind said no~
A piercing in the back of arm then a pause for my veins~
A waiting for my body to get warm again~
Good god another shot for me? But i haven’t done that shit for over 7 mos see~
So then i sat, this body tease attacking me~
And my head began to shrink~
An all i could do was think~
Please god, not like this~
Please god don’t take away Mitch~
An then the muscle aches began~
Like I had been shooting for days again~
Another piercing, this one in the back of my thigh~
An all i could do was sit on my bed, rock and cry~
Doesn’t he know this is how my husband died~
I grabbed my phone, to call and say i love you~
Not wanting to let another go to bed without hearing it too~
Please god, not two for two~
You know they say it was I who killed my heart that night~
But really I just couldn’t make it right~
That’s the worst thing about this life~
I am powerless over who chooses to fight~
but i keep on loving no matter what they do~
because darlings i understand i am just like you~
What a heartfelt poem, G. I especially love the last line. We all are human, we all have experiences, some we like, others we may not like..in the end, we are different, yet the same.
How have you been? I emailed you on mother’s day. Hope is alright with you.
Luv, Cordie
I have been lost again…
this time the journey back maybe rougher on me
but the letting go shall be eaier, as i have prepared myself
Sunday, I begin again, at least I still have a roof over my head this time
Love to ya sis
-g