Currently speaking
first off- The desire to write grows with writing. — Desiderius Erasmus
now then- there is one, yes. and i.ve been trying to make a point not to mention him as i felt like when i returned here much of my post lost processing was entirely focused on men, but alas to deny the urge to put in print what usuaslly otherwise swims within my dark recesses is only helpful, no matter how obseesed i sound… so there.
my counsoler says i kid myself in disguising the truth of male obseesion by saying things like, well he’s in the program, or we talked about not having sex (and how did that work with the last one) and other such justifycations… so lemmie give you a new one, Miss Jessica.
he will call me out on my “overt friendliness” by reminding me of my yet newcomer status… (so surely our boundaries will remain intact, and my emotional despiration will be kept at bay, no problem)…. ah who knows
he’s kinda a mystic to me, o n he thinks im too wound (i wonder what he’d think if he knew i was the most laid back in my family) HA,
smartest lil artisitc spaz attack i know… adorable! \
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